valentine day blues Feb 15th, 2004 3:14:27 am EST
and i’m still alone..i’m a little sad. I wish I was the one that he wanted to come home to. I wish I was the one that got those gorgeous red roses. I wish I was the one that was picking up ice cream for him..we could have fun with ice cream…dribbling it over each other’s body, licking it off each other’s bodies…mmmm

It bothers me alot that he still has a girlfriend and I couldn’t stay the night. I don’t like that he still sleeps with her. Although i’ve gotten say, he’s gots guts having sex with me in his bed while she was out.. it bothers me that they stay together because of convience..because its hard to find a place with 2 dogs..i’ll help her find a place!!! I don’t want to hear about them going away together for a weekend…I’m being selfish but i want more….i don’t want to stop seeing him, i like him, i love the sex, i love the way he feels inside me..i thought he was sexy from the first moment i saw him….

update: i’m over the wants and wishes..i guess i was just feeling the valentine day blues. I get that way every valentine’s day..i’m a total romantic and want the flowers and the romance
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the last person i expected to hear from today was my ex..wishing me a happy valentine’s day..at least i’m smiling now..thanks DE

I have two guys flirting with me both of whom I find incredibly sexy and cute..but one I thought had a girlfriend and one I work with..well actually both I work with but one works inhouse and one is my vendor..here’s the funny thing

the vendor..DF…came over to my house to look at my computer..and we both know damn well that I know how to open my computer and look inside it..I’m an computer geek..was he checking out my house? I know he was flirting with me..but what gives..girlfriend or not?

the guy in house..MJ..is calling me spike now.which I think from what I’ve heard is an endearing term he uses and wants to go out to dinner…

and there’s a third guy..RP…

I’m so incredibly horny at this point..whom do I choose..whoever makes the first move?

original comments
Logical – January 24th, 2004Trust your insticts. Go with the one that makes the first move, and don’t worry about the girlfriend unless you want it to last.
ourbedroom_him – January 24th, 2004vendor sounds like the better choice — if it doesn’t work out 100% at least you don’t work with him 8 hours a day! On the other hand, who says you have to choose? Why not try all three?

I haven’t been horny lately, i guess lack of sleep and working so much, I just haven’t been feeling it but this morning..ooooo..first orgasm in weeks..love reading everyones tales of the wicked and sexy..and a little vibration..mmmmm..feeling much better..

I miss having a warm body next to me. I miss the tenderness of a man, the playfulness of pure honest sex, the feeling of contact as he slides into me, plays with my clit and my ass. I love kisses on my back..i love feeling a cock in my ass…

time to find a new man..I’m defintely interested in someone..another cancer, another loner but maybe this one is interested in more than just something to pass by the time..i want more, i want a relationship and I WANT to HAVE SEX EVERYDAY!!! I want to feel wet again when I see the man I’m with…

mmm…back to the vibration..yummy sweet sensations

I haven’t been blogging for awhile, haven’t really been into it, busy at work, sad from breaking up with someone, so I thought I’d share a story about someone I had an incredible crush on a couple of years ago…

Isis sat down on the edge of the console table as it was the only place to sit in the telco closet and she was tired of standing. Charles swung his legs around behind her and sat down too, asking “can you balance the keyboard on your knees, so we can look at it together?” Isis replied, “yes, I think I can do that but I need to lean against you for balance.” As Isis lean against Charles, she could feel his warm body and smell his cologne. Isis started to move her back slightly against his groin. Charles reach around to the Isis to the laptop, pulling her closer against him, innocently looking at the data streaming from the system across the laptop. With one hand balancing the laptop, Isis reached behind her to rub the small of her back, lightly grazing Charles’ growing member. Charles let out a gasp but said nothing. Isis reached behind her again and fumbled for his zipper all the while looking at the data. Charles reached again for the keyboard but let his hand come to rest on her breast, slowly teasing and twisting her hard nipples. The air between them was hot and sexy. Isis had his cock out and was slowly masturbating him from behind. She could feel him against her back. She wanted more,
Isis lowered her knees to keep the laptop from toppling over, twisted and reached behind and pulled Charles’ mouth to hers. The kiss turned into a deep frenzy but then Charles pulled away, “I’m married, I can’t.” Isis wasn’t about to let him get away with that excuse, they had gone too far tonight to stop and Isis was getting very wet and didnÂ’t want to be frustrated tonight.

Isis stopped her backwards exploring, putting the laptop down on the floor and swung around to face Charles. She pulled him into her again and greedily kissed him while running her hands down his chest, down his belly…

…to be continued…

1/1/04
I miss “d”. He’s been so busy lately that our schedules just aren’t mingling..I haven’t felt really horny during the weeks of work but I swear if “d” touched me right now, I’d be on fire. The last time I saw him was November 1st and it was great, totally animalistic passionate sex twice that night and I really wanted great morning sex but I had to go to work and left him sleeping here..that was hard to do knowing he was still sleeping in my bed and I was working.

I woke up this morning so horny and wanted him to just slide into me, feel his hands on my skin, feel his lips deeply kissing me..just feel the man again would be wonderful.

I have this need for raw sex and then some tender loving sex and cuddling together and then more passionate sex..and kisses on back…when he kisses my back for some reason it totally turns me on like no other man has ever turned me on.

I miss him.

1/8/04
I love the way you hold my head when kissing me. I love the fact that we are so easy and comfortable with each other and we fit so well together. I love when you hold me after we have sex. I love the way you hold me at night when we are asleep. I love waking up to morning sex. I love the way you seem to understand exactly what i want in bed. I love the way you make me feel. I love the way you feel inside me. I love the way you smell. I love the way you express yourself when you are coming, that totally turns me on. I love when you kiss me on my back or trace circles on my back..i never knew that was such an erogenous zone for me. The first time we were together..no man has ever made me want him more than you did that night. I kissed you the first time to shut you up but also because I really really want to taste you, to feel you, the chemistry between us was so strong and you looked so sexy that night. I completely trust you.

and now its over goodbye “d”.

kisses on back
oh so wet
feeling you slide into me
need your sweet taste
mingling with my taste
upon my tongue
kisses on back
turns me on to no end
grabbing my head, playing with my hair
kissing deep, deeper
wanting, needing
delightful play
feeling you close
pushing deeper within
kneading my nipples
from behind
kisses on back
easy, gently
then
harder and deeper
you push within
feeling you come
as my own orgasm
sweeps me along in
sheer delight

kisses on back
oh so wet
feeling you slide into me
need your sweet taste
mingling with my taste
upon my tongue
kisses on back
turns me on to no end
grabbing my head, playing with my hair
kissing deep, deeper
wanting, needing
delightful play
feeling you close
pushing deeper within
kneading my nipples from behind
kisses on back
easy, gently then
harder and deeper
you push within feeling you come
as my own orgasm
sweeps me along in sheer delight

this was the first post, the beginning of discovering my erotic side, my erotic nature, my willingness to explore and become aware of who i was deep inside

and now i’m moving my archives over to from indecent to blogger, as I wish my original comments could come along, they seemed to have disappeared for the historical posts

originally posted 10-31-03…I woke up this morning so incredibly horny. I want D so badly, I haven’t been with him for over a month now and I miss his incredible sexual energy. I never thought I’d beg a man for sex. I want to feel his cock inside my pussy now! I want him to fuck me all night long. My toys and fingers just aren’t doing it, I want the real thing………let me back up a sec here..I met D about 5-6 months ago, we have this incredible passionate sexual relationship. We are so comfortable together and the sex is incredible..all night long, sweaty, animalistic, passionate sex! He has done things to me that made me realize what I want in a long term relationship someday. I love the feel of a cock in my ass but only if I completely trust my lover, I love the way that he helps me have an orgasm especially if he came too quickly, his fingers are incredibly talented. I love when he kisses and licks my back…totally turns me on. When he grabs and bites my nipples, sends me out of this world. I want to taste him again, I want to feel his come down my throat. The way he holds my head when we kiss, the passion of the kiss, the roughness of the kiss. I love the way he sounds when he is coming, he is so open to expressing his feelings, his passion. I want this everyday..I want to have sweaty passionate rough sex!! I want him to make love to me too, I want slow passionate sex!! I want to wake up to sex in the morning!! I want to be with someone that as soon as we see each other we can’t keep our hands off one another. I want someone that makes me so horny every time I think about him. But I also want more than just an occasional lover and a friend, I want a full-time lover in a long-term (marriage maybe) relationship.right now, I want D to fuck me! right now, I’m going to have to settle for a great erotic story and my vibrator before heading off to work.

original comments:

j – December 17th, 2003 Nice start! Keep up the good work! I’d love to hear more from you
her – December 17th, 2003 teehee i think we all feel that way from time to time