i do know what i want

re-reading my other blog, i realized that i already know what i want in a relationship. I wasn’t looking for either of the two guys i have a on/off sexual relationships with (df and de)..they pursue me and when i got too intense..they disappeared..

i am intense!, i’m nerdy and geeky, i’m lazy and sometimes like to sleep all day, i can be quiet and sometimes i can be loud, i love listening to music but can sit in complete silence too, i love making sweet slow passionate love but i also like hard rough biting my clit type of sex, i like women, i like to experiment, i would love to be tied up and teased and most of all i love when a man kisses my back, i tend to get major energy from having sex but sometimes i like to cuddle and sleep, i tend to talk to myself when i’m programming or doing accounting, i don’t mind the cat hair on the couch, i think that the cats jumping up on the counter or drinking out of my glass is cute, i sometimes forget to eat until i get dizzy, i’m always horny, i am a good cook but sometime the food turns out gross and i don’t like to cook all the time, i am not the best housekeeper in the world – ok, i suck at it but it doesn’t bother me as much as it bothers others, i love surprises(good ones), i love reading, i don’t want to change someone to be something there are not because i don’t want to be something i’m not, i’m down to earth and very sensual and intense!

I want to be the mistress, I want to be the lover, I want to be the girlfriend, I want to be the partner in a long-term relationship and I want to get married someday and I definetly want a least one kid someday.

I want someone that I feel totally comfortable with in a room even if we are doing our own thing, I want the sexual energy between us to always be on. I want to look across a room and be that turned on by someone always. I want his touch to electrify me. I want to miss that person when we are apart and I want him to miss me. I want to know that person, I want him to know me..all my scattered thoughts. I will give my heart and soul to someone who loves me the same. I want alot I know but I don’t think I’m asking for too much…

i want kisses to always be passionate…”The heart can discern so many kinds of kisses. From the first shy kiss to the hungry urgent passionate kiss that almost shatters the soul.”

df knew what i wanted from the beginning, he’s read the other blog and i knew where he was in his life but i still like him and still think he is incredibly sexy..but i think he probably needs to find himself before he makes another commitment in his life and de, well that has been over for a while now, we still are very attracted to one another and when he grabs my head and kisses me, i could melt, but i know that de needs to find himself and his career first before he can commit to anyone else…with that being said, i wasn’t looking for either of these guys..they pursued me and neither was exactly the type of guy i’d actually notice..so maybe the next guy that pursues me will be able to handle the intense me and will want a commitment.

but i do know what i want in my life..now just to find the guy that can deal with an intense sexy magick desires and all that encompasses me..

until that time..df or de…i need sex!!!!

softness

as i emerge from the hot steamy shower, droplets of water running between my thighs, i reach for the baby oil to massage into my still wet body. The essence of the softness as the oil is seductively massaged into every pore of my body. My nipples stand at attention as i rub the baby soft oil into my breasts, down my stomach, onto my freshly shaven pussy lips, down my thighs, back up towards my ass and then onto my back. I feel heavenly, super soft and luscious like dew on a strawberry field. My body aches for his touch, his fingers running light touches against my now sweet, clean, soft body. His hands massaging my back, caressing my ass as his fingers lightly touch my clit, every so slightly making me crazy with want, desire, lust. His body brushes mine, he enters me slowly from behind and the sweet crush of desire overwhelms me as i feel my juices flowing erupting into a waterfall of orgasm, pulling me into the clouds of lust.

on that note, i’m super horny and i want to feel a hard cock inside me..i’ve been waiting all day to play with my vibrator and now the cats are surrounding me which somehow kills the mood because they think its a toy

lips

so soft
sensual
moist

i love the feel of just lightly touching, lightly running my fingers along my lips, the pure sensation of tender softness…

sight of a woman

i was getting gas today and saw this blond, the way her shirt moved up when she bent over, the small of her back, i could imagine running my tongue along her back, holding, massaging her small breasts with my hands, playing with her clit, grabbing her ass, pulling her closer to me as i dipped my tongue into her wet pussy, tasting her sweet juices, the scent intoxicating and then she smiled at me..my god, i was wet, i could feel my cum running down my legs..imagined her biting my nipples, feeling her insert her fingers into my pussy..i was in my own little fantasy world. i wonder what she was thinking..

cybersex with the ex

i was denied but got some great cybersex from the ex..
we were discussing music and general things, df which is odd but we are still good friends and then it turned to cybersex..

here’s a taste
de: boxers or briefs? which is better?
SMD boxers
de: hmm
de: I started wearing boxers when I was a college student.
de: I either wear boxers or nothing
SMD nothing is even better
de: Just more wash to do
de: heh
SMD easier access
de: You have your priorities straight
de:
SMD i’m so wet
SMD mastrubating is making me hornier
de: It’s bound to do that
de: Like the cool breeze on your back of a sigh after a wet kiss
SMD i want to feel your hard cock inside me
de: Teasing the clit with the head of my cock
de: Then entering slowly
SMD no teasing, just deep hard thrusting
de: Holding your right leg ….cradled in my arm
de: Switching from slow entery to hard thrusts
de: pumping and rocking your bed like crazy
de: Wrapping my right arm behind your back
de: slamming into you with wet force
de: Sweat lubricates
de: Motion like water
de: squeeze your tit with my left hand
SMD biting my tit, feeling you damn..loss for words
de: Grab your ass with both hands and lean into you
de: Can feel my balls touching your thighs and the parting of your legsde: Slapping of flesh
SMD my legs wrapped around you, pulling you deeper and deeper
de: _Like the water against the side of a ship in a storm
de: _Your wetness saturating the walls of your thighs
de: _My cock is wet plunging
de: _My hand cups your ass
de: _Nails bite tenderly into your ass
de: _The cockj is so slippery. It’s unweildy in this storm.
de: _I just push into your pelvis, totally in you and stop for a moment, gyrate slightly.
de: _Lick you from my hand
SMD _tasting myself on you, mmmmmm
SMD _slow teasing, riding the waves
de: _I pull your hair back, pull it taught behind your head
de: _My hand cups your pussy
de: _My cock slides around on your side
de: _We’re on our right sides now
de: _I hold your head steady as i kiss your neck and back
SMD _as you slowly enter my ass, kissing my back
de: _My ciock slides aginst your back
de: _All lubed by your own taste
de: _Slowly I’m in
de: _Hold your ass, your hair
de: _Push into you
SMD _playing with my clit, as you push into me..
de: _Feel your ass against my pelvis and legs
de: _Hand still playing with your pussy
de: _thumb on the clit while others spelunk inside your inner
de: _Light flicking
de: _Stay still in your ass
de: _Have to hold myself together
SMD _i want to feel you come..i want to taste you sliding down the back of my throat..
de: _I slowly pull back out, and pull the condom off
de: _I am kneeling on the bed
de: _i hold your head from the back, with your hair in my fingers
SMD _stroking
de: _My left hand is still on your pussy, cupped there
de: _Feels so good
de: _Hot all over
SMD mmmmmmmmmmooooooooooooooooooooooo
de: hummmmmm
de: ah
de: How do you feel?
SMD hmmmmmm
SMD sweaty, hot
SMD and wondering why you’re not here

mmm…sleepy now, its great to play with the ex..but i really wanted df tonight..hmmm…

cybersex with the ex

i was denied but got some great cybersex from the ex..
we were discussing music and general things, df which is odd but we are still good friends and then it turned to cybersex..

here’s a taste
de: boxers or briefs? which is better?
SMD boxers
de: hmm
de: I started wearing boxers when I was a college student.
de: I either wear boxers or nothing
SMD nothing is even better
de: Just more wash to do
de: heh
SMD easier access
de: You have your priorities straight
de:
SMD i’m so wet
SMD mastrubating is making me hornier
de: It’s bound to do that
de: Like the cool breeze on your back of a sigh after a wet kiss
SMD i want to feel your hard cock inside me
de: Teasing the clit with the head of my cock
de: Then entering slowly
SMD no teasing, just deep hard thrusting
de: Holding your right leg ….cradled in my arm
de: Switching from slow entery to hard thrusts
de: pumping and rocking your bed like crazy
de: Wrapping my right arm behind your back
de: slamming into you with wet force
de: Sweat lubricates
de: Motion like water
de: squeeze your tit with my left hand
SMD biting my tit, feeling you damn..loss for words
de: Grab your ass with both hands and lean into you
de: Can feel my balls touching your thighs and the parting of your legsde: Slapping of flesh
SMD my legs wrapped around you, pulling you deeper and deeper
de: _Like the water against the side of a ship in a storm
de: _Your wetness saturating the walls of your thighs
de: _My cock is wet plunging
de: _My hand cups your ass
de: _Nails bite tenderly into your ass
de: _The cockj is so slippery. It’s unweildy in this storm.
de: _I just push into your pelvis, totally in you and stop for a moment, gyrate slightly.
de: _Lick you from my hand
SMD _tasting myself on you, mmmmmm
SMD _slow teasing, riding the waves
de: _I pull your hair back, pull it taught behind your head
de: _My hand cups your pussy
de: _My cock slides around on your side
de: _We’re on our right sides now
de: _I hold your head steady as i kiss your neck and back
SMD _as you slowly enter my ass, kissing my back
de: _My ciock slides aginst your back
de: _All lubed by your own taste
de: _Slowly I’m in
de: _Hold your ass, your hair
de: _Push into you
SMD _playing with my clit, as you push into me..
de: _Feel your ass against my pelvis and legs
de: _Hand still playing with your pussy
de: _thumb on the clit while others spelunk inside your inner
de: _Light flicking
de: _Stay still in your ass
de: _Have to hold myself together
SMD _i want to feel you come..i want to taste you sliding down the back of my throat..
de: _I slowly pull back out, and pull the condom off
de: _I am kneeling on the bed
de: _i hold your head from the back, with your hair in my fingers
SMD _stroking
de: _My left hand is still on your pussy, cupped there
de: _Feels so good
de: _Hot all over
SMD mmmmmmmmmmooooooooooooooooooooooo
de: hummmmmm
de: ah
de: How do you feel?
SMD hmmmmmm
SMD sweaty, hot
SMD and wondering why you’re not here

mmm…sleepy now, its great to play with the ex..but i really wanted df tonight..hmmm…

if my co-workers really knew what i was like

I’m sitting here at work talking to this women who thinks she knows it all in regards to sex and men and always has a story to tell that will top whatever you are talking about, she’s been there so she can feel for you kinda of thing..actually rather annoying. She always stands really close to me..which tends to piss me off, like she’s my best friend or something..i can’t write about her on my other blog, she reads that one….ok enough venting…..

here’s the funny part, she was telling me that if a man ever tried to partake in anal sex with her, it would just end any interests she might have had in him..these were her words not mine…and that any man that wanted rough sex, he could just hit the road that she was a better woman than those people who did those things and she would never be friends with someone who liked that kind of stuff (she brings up these subjects not i)

….little does she know, I love a hard cock in my ass, sometimes rough sex is awesome..i still have bruises from monday night when df bit my tits and nipples, my inner thighs.. i actually have teeth marks..and just thinking about having hard intense sex with df, him licking my ass and entering my ass..is totally making me wet..and incredibly horny…and little does she know of the awesome rough sex df and i had in this very office monday afternoon…

and only one other person is left in the bldg..hmmm..mj, if she really knew what i wanted to do with mj, i think she would faint..oh, think i need to go find some place private to put my play with my clit

if any of them knew what i really really loved, how wild i actually am outside of work mmmmmmmmm

a question for men

a question for all these men in a sexless marriage. I’ve been reading some of these great blogs by men who seem to be in a sexless marriage…that they’re wives just aren’t into sex and they are horny all the time. When you start dreaming of strip clubs, and other women, isn’t it time to re-evaluate your marriage? And when you have actually wandered away from the relationship and started seeing the other women, don’t you think its time to just end the relationship?

i’m talking about personal experience here – i am the other women – I don’t want him to break up/end the relationship because of me but because it has ended some time ago…enough to make him seek out other pleasures with me. i know how to keep my man happy, i’m horny 24/7

To all these men who are in a sexless or occasional sex marriage…What happened in the relationship? Was she never into sex? Did she change – totally into sex before and not now? How long are you going to wait? and have you just ever flat out told her that you want sex all the time?
Mood: curious

originally(19) desires
joeguy – February 16th, 2004
Interesting query. I happen to be in a great marriage, crammed full of good sex, even some off-beat stuff. But when what seems to be a safe opportunity wafts in front of me, I tend to take it. Why? Most directly, because I like pussy, and I seem to have the knack of sniffing out women who enjoy a strange cock from time to time. If you’d check out my first posting, you’d read how I went from a quickie fuck with my current friend to a fuck less than an hour later with my wife. Both women seemed satisfied — they had good orgasms, at any rate.

df – February 16th, 2004
I would have to agree with joeguy. I was married for 5 years, together for 10. We started in out teens.. We still to this day love each other very much. We have just accepted the fact that we have different needs. We share a son, which is demanding sometimes. But we have promised each other that NO ONE will come between that.

My current girlfried was a rebound relation ship. Im weak. I cannot be alone. I am afraid to try. I dont consider my self Don Juan. But when the opportunity arises. I take it. I have a confidence issue my shrink says. But I have learned that life is too short to be tied to one person (just me). I want to enjoy what i can, while i can. Sex is not important to me at all. but the pursuit of it is.. I like the first time feelings. the tension between two people wanting each other. I love pussy. and have a fetish for ass.

Even if i was with a woman that totally satified me sexually.. doesnt mean i wouldnt look else where too.. I know im a PIG. but hey i admit it and enjoy it. Hence the reason why I wont get married or have any kids soon..

SMD – February 16th, 2004
df – never said you had to be alone i totally doubt you would seek elsewhere considering what you told me so far..and then there’s the confidence issue..never said I wouldn’t enjoy another woman either..but if she knew what you were up to..would she leave?

joeguy – does your wife know what you do on the side?

df – February 16th, 2004
I think she would leave.. No woman would want their other cheating on them. So i assume she would leave..

SMD – February 16th, 2004
if the arrangement was a mutual agreement, then its not cheating…

but how would you feel if you found your girlfriend or wife cheating on you?

df – February 16th, 2004
well ive experienced the wife cheating. As for my girlfriend. Id prefer not to find out. If she is doing it.. thats fine with me.. Just keep it out of my site..

SMD – February 16th, 2004
df – now you know how i feel..i don’t need to hear about you going away with her. I’m selfish, i want you to myself. The only reason I got involved with you is because you told me you two were breaking up. Break up already!!!

how would you feel if I was seeing someone else?

logical – February 16th, 2004
Sexy — I love your blog! It is very reassuring to know that a woman can be horny and come right out and say she loves sex.

In my situation, I dunno. My wife definitely has a different need and desire level, but a relationship cannot be built on sex alone, or it will fail when the sex goes flat. My wife is my best friend and I would never betray her, no matter how much my desire runs away on me. Sure, I have thought about grabbing someone new on the side, and I have had a couple of offers, but it always comes back to my friendship with my wife.

SMD – February 16th, 2004
logical – i completely agree, sex alone isn’t going to make a relationship survive..but its a big part of it, there has to be friendship too, a mutal respect of each other’s needs and desires. I think that df and I have that friendship and the chemistry between us is intense.

logical – its nice to know that there are men out there like you that want sex all the time and still want marriage

df – February 17th, 2004
I agree with logical. but its hard to find. the last time i trusted someone with all that. she left me.. Im NOT going to set myself up for that again. Selfish of me but thats the way it is. I love sex but youre right, when it gets flat i get bored. Must be why i find it elsewhere. Hence when i do decide to get married again. I will NOT ever cheat. but thats a long time away..

SMD – February 17th, 2004
df – Not everyone is the same, not every woman is the same..I would never cheat on you but you’d have to get me a chance. I’m tired of being alone every night. I trusted you when you said things were ending/ended – was I wrong to trust you in that?

df – February 18th, 2004
and i might decide to give you that chance. but i told you that things with me and my GF are tough right now and more than likely going to end sometime in the near future. but that still dont mean im going to jump right back into a rebound relationship.. I did that once. i dont want to hurt anyone again.

SMD – February 18th, 2004
i don’t want you in a rebound relationship..i just want your body and maybe our friendship will develop into something more someday or maybe not. I don’t want to rule that out… and I don’t want us to stop talking

valentine day blues

valentine day blues Feb 15th, 2004 3:14:27 am EST
and i’m still alone..i’m a little sad. I wish I was the one that he wanted to come home to. I wish I was the one that got those gorgeous red roses. I wish I was the one that was picking up ice cream for him..we could have fun with ice cream…dribbling it over each other’s body, licking it off each other’s bodies…mmmm

It bothers me alot that he still has a girlfriend and I couldn’t stay the night. I don’t like that he still sleeps with her. Although i’ve gotten say, he’s gots guts having sex with me in his bed while she was out.. it bothers me that they stay together because of convience..because its hard to find a place with 2 dogs..i’ll help her find a place!!! I don’t want to hear about them going away together for a weekend…I’m being selfish but i want more….i don’t want to stop seeing him, i like him, i love the sex, i love the way he feels inside me..i thought he was sexy from the first moment i saw him….

update: i’m over the wants and wishes..i guess i was just feeling the valentine day blues. I get that way every valentine’s day..i’m a total romantic and want the flowers and the romance
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the last person i expected to hear from today was my ex..wishing me a happy valentine’s day..at least i’m smiling now..thanks DE

out with the old, in with the new…

I have two guys flirting with me both of whom I find incredibly sexy and cute..but one I thought had a girlfriend and one I work with..well actually both I work with but one works inhouse and one is my vendor..here’s the funny thing

the vendor..DF…came over to my house to look at my computer..and we both know damn well that I know how to open my computer and look inside it..I’m an computer geek..was he checking out my house? I know he was flirting with me..but what gives..girlfriend or not?

the guy in house..MJ..is calling me spike now.which I think from what I’ve heard is an endearing term he uses and wants to go out to dinner…

and there’s a third guy..RP…

I’m so incredibly horny at this point..whom do I choose..whoever makes the first move?

original comments
Logical – January 24th, 2004Trust your insticts. Go with the one that makes the first move, and don’t worry about the girlfriend unless you want it to last.
ourbedroom_him – January 24th, 2004vendor sounds like the better choice — if it doesn’t work out 100% at least you don’t work with him 8 hours a day! On the other hand, who says you have to choose? Why not try all three?